broken.. but moving on..

i know i had a hard life.. harder than some but not as hard as others.. but i decided long ago that i can either wallow in my own sorrow or get over it and get on..

i have live a life, that compared to others would seem to have been filled with great sorrow and unhappiness.. i wish i didn't live "the best years of my life" in the dark.. i wish i didn't spend so many nights crying T_T or so many days hoping that all this pain would end somehow..

i wish i had the courage to speak up, and let people know who i really was.. they just know me as the cheerful and happy girl i pretended to be.. some says that they envy me because all they see through me is a person whose life is so bubbly and colorful.. but the truth is, the real me hides in the dark.. i was so down on myself even when i had people who cared about me.. i let some people in but kept them at arms length.. they didn't see me.. they wouldn't see nor hear the words the way they were intended..

i did not want anyone to feel sorry for me, never did i want anyone to tip-toe around this aspect of my life.. it happened and i had no control over it.. it was not the easiest of lives to lead..

so i live my life to what i feel to be, to the fullest.. my only goal is to be happy and to those around me to be happy as well.. i am content to move on to what is next..

my whole life, all i really wanted was a little peace and some love here and there..

but.. c'est la vie..