Marami akong kaibigan. Pede nga akong tawaging Miss Congeniality of Earth! Chos! Ang buhay ko lng naman ay masasabing nag e evolve sa mga kaibigan ko since wala naman akong dyowa for almost a decade na. Kaya sobrang mahal at pinahahalagahan ko ang mga kaibigan ko katulad ng pagmamahal sa pamilya ko. Masasabi kong I can live this human life without a opposite sex relationship, but I can't live it without my special friends.
Bestfriends. I have lots na matatawag na bestfriends but i don't want to tag my friends with labels. As long as kaibigan kita at very special ka sakin yun na yun. Kumbaga sa puso ko isa ka na sa special na tao na parte ng buhay at pagkatao ko.
I have this special friend wayback in college. We've been so close, that I treated her as my baby sister since I'm a year older. The friendship was so pure and special. There are so many issues we've been through but we still manage na ma overcome lahat ng mga yun. A week won't be complete ng walang mga tampuhan na mangyayari. Maybe because she's too childish or sensitive most of the times. Pero sobrang sweet naman yun. She wrotes me letters, but most of them are sorry letters dahil sa mga ginagawa niyang alam niya na ikinasasama ng loob ko. Sobrang protective lang naman kasi ako sa kanya because i don't want her to get hurt.
But we can't stop bad things from happening. That special friendship comes to an end. And I just let it go, just like that. Sobrang nasaktan ako sa mga nangyari. We have our faults. But now I realized, that the biggest fault was on me. I didn't see that part na naparealized sakin ng isang friend last night. Maybe if I didn't become so immature and close minded at that time magkabigan pa rin kami ngayon. Siguro if ni set aside ko yun sama ng loob ko sa kanya and attended her wedding maybe everything will be so okay until now. Sabi ng isang kaibigan ko kagabi "nun time na ininvite ka niya sa kasal niya kahit masama din ang loob niya sayo dahil sa may may pinagsamahan kayo it's her way of telling na mahalaga ka at importante ka sa kanya for setting aside yun tampuhan niyo, tapos di ka nagpunta sa special na araw niya na yun, kung ako din yun kahit ako magagalit na talaga sayo." That's it! Boom! Sana nga nakita ko yun part na yun. But at that time I'm still blinded ng sama ng loob ko sa kanya.
We already settled our issues. But that special friendship is already gone. Maybe our friendship right now is lies between friends and aquiantances. But I still want our special friendship to be there. Pero mahirap ng maibalik yun katulad ng dati. We have move on with our friendship. I just missed her and our bond. One time nga try ko ma invite siya mag starbucks tapos papalibre ako sa kanya. So we can catch things up. Hahahaha!
People come and go. As the cliché goes. Yes, people do come and go into our lives. I have met some special friends after that. I met wonderful people, who is making my world turns upside down right now. Hahahaha! Issues di mawawala sa friendship yan. But now, I know how to handle it in a more matured way. Ayoko na mawalan at mabawasan ng mga special na tao sa buhay ko. I may not stop bad things from happening. But this time i won't let this bad things ruin my friendships. This is my realization.
