I wanted to tell myself sorry, sorry for living in vain. Well, I guess at some point everything has to make an escape. I was never afraid of death and at this point I have to say that my feelings have stayed the same. There were a couple of times when I tried to end it all myself… but I couldn’t, I’m not one for giving in since I have to know the answer for everything and giving in on my own terms would leave to many unanswered questions. Life isn’t what everyone thinks it is I must say that I know more than what you think. Life has no beginning and no end.
It seems to me at the same time that this is the logical conclusion to my life, yet that I have only just begun living it. I narrate too much, think things through to a fault. I honestly hope my afterlife would never be anything like this. I'd want a free chance to think. I've seen the world become a better place for people like me within my lifetime. I only hope it continues to improve. Too much drama and you end up here, writing a sorry letter for oneself. I love my friends. I know that. I love my family even more. To all, just always remember the good times and always remember how much I love all of you…
It seems to me at the same time that this is the logical conclusion to my life, yet that I have only just begun living it. I narrate too much, think things through to a fault. I honestly hope my afterlife would never be anything like this. I'd want a free chance to think. I've seen the world become a better place for people like me within my lifetime. I only hope it continues to improve. Too much drama and you end up here, writing a sorry letter for oneself. I love my friends. I know that. I love my family even more. To all, just always remember the good times and always remember how much I love all of you…
